It's Near, So Close

Tomorrow is the last (I HOPE) big event for the chamber this year. It has been a grueling year for me with this organization. So many downs, not many ups at least for me. I feel used most of the time and it's really a shame to reach a point where the monetary compensation is all you're left with. For most people, I guess that's not a problem cause as long as they're getting paid they'll do anything. But for me, working is not all about the money. I've always put my best foot forward and then some. I wanted to feel part of something larger than myself. I love sharing my input, helping my teammates and encouraging the people I work with.

I'm an introvert, a real introvert so working one on one with someone I get along with is the ideal thing but working alone is fine with me too. As long as I know my job, I will motivate myself. I keep logs and a planner and use automation where I can. Working on a team for me doesn't have to be in daily meetings or conference calls. Email communications works best for me. I don't really like talking a whole long time in meetings or on the phone. Writing is my communicative skill.

However, this team that I have to work with is the exact opposite and it's uncomfortable to say the least. I go back a lot to how things were years ago and I keep getting reminded that, that was the past and things are changing so I had better get with the program or get left out. I don't think it would be a bad thing to get left out. I have so many things in my heart I'd rather be doing.

So juggling today with little sleep is my journey. I had to get up too early to go to work on this event tomorrow and I managed to go to breakfast with hubby but came back, went back to work and now it's almost time to go back out for dinner. I'm so sleepy I can barely hold my head up so I'm praying for a 1st wind! LOL

I'm also feeling like I'm gaining more weight because my tops that usually feel okay to wear suddenly feel tighter so I need to lay off sandwiches, too much bread. Just hope that I can eat some meals and drink more water.

The weather is beautiful today, just gorgeous and an answer to prayer. I'm looking to Saturday's 2nd eclipse and the weather isn't looking great that day but I prayed that God will turn it around, it's His to do with however He wills, I would just love to sit outside with my eclipse glasses on and enjoy the surroundings without it storming. Then Sunday, we're headed to an Arts/Crafts sale at the Events center. We don't usually stay long, we just like to see what everyone else is selling. Being out with hubby is always fun no matter what we're doing. 

I guess that's it for this log entry. It feels good to write again.